I, Cassandra: A Reflection on “I, Tonya”


*This article deals with the Tonya Harding character as presented to us in the movie I, Tonya.

Tonya Harding made history as the second woman to land a triple axel in an international competition. She skated her way to the Olympics with fierce excellence and unstoppable grit. The look on her face when she landed the move encapsulated everything America loved about her: the thrill of winning and doing something deemed nearly impossible.

Tonya Harding also was severely abused as a child under the strict, unrelenting gaze of her mother. That abuse carried into her young adult life when she met her husband Jeff Gilooly. Pressures of the ice-skating world combined with her rough-and-tumble childhood made her an outcast in the skating world, even before what she calls “the incident” with Nancy Kerrigan.

I am none of those things. I have never achieved something as great as the Olympics nor faced any abuse from the people in my life. Instead of being beaten down, I am constantly being lifted up by everyone I love.

Then why was I able to relate to Tonya so much?

The movie garners sympathy for Tonya. Life dealt her a bad hand. In a particularly heart-wrenching scene, Tonya confronts the judges after receiving a low score despite clearly out-skating all of her competitors. She skates up to the panel. Fury and desperation burns in her eyes as she implores, “How do I get a fair shot here?”

It wasn’t fair, Tonya laments to us. It just wasn’t fair.

And that was what struck me to the core.

I’m not Tonya. And neither is anyone else, for that matter. But we’ve all faced, in our ow ways, the unfairness of life. And sometimes, we’ve all reacted like Tonya did: by striking out, complaining, sinking into self-pity and an unhealthy lifestyle—all actions justified in the movie by the compassion we feel for her.  

But the cycle can become vicious. Not everyone can pull themselves out of it like Tonya eventually does. I know I would be a helpless victim if not for the presence of God–I’d be lost in my exasperation at the world for closing door after door. But because I know His love for me, I know my self-worth lies in Him. And I know He has great plans for me. And I believe Oprah speaks the truth when she says, “There is no such thing as failure. Failure is just life trying to move us in another direction.”

Life isn’t fair. Tonya had it a lot worse than most of us. Tonya failed. A lot. But one thing we can all learn is her spirit. Her resilience. Her courage. Even though she gets out of shape thanks to some poor life choices, she throws herself back into rigorous training as soon as she sees a sliver of a shot at her big-time dream. She’s unstoppable, even after she is banned from the sport that she desperately loves, a sport that runs through her blood. Life knocks her down hard again and again, but she defies expectations because she does the only thing that matters: she gets back on her feet. Watching Tonya conquer the ice despite how she is falling apart on the inside makes me think that I, Cassandra, can conquer too.

Like screenwriter Steven Rogers describes,

She smiles. Somehow she rises. Nothing will keep her down.

She begins to fight again.


Fight Like Cap


“Why are you Team Captain America?”

I’ve lost count of how many times I was asked that when Marvel released Captain America: Civil War. The question is one that has haunted me, because I’m not sure how to articulate my answer.

Chris Evans’s killer jawline, solid abs, and Dorito-shaped body certainly help. But I think there’s something more to Cap. He’s a patriotic leader and he fights for what is right, but like Spider-Man tells him, “You think you’re right, and that makes you dangerous.” After all, don’t all villains think they’re right?

I think the real answer lies in why he fights, and how he fights. He fights for the people he loves. He fights until the end of the line, even if his sacrifices are all for naught. He is willing to become an international war criminal to protect his best friend Bucky. His love persists even if it places him at odds with his country, because brotherhood and solidarity trump patriotism.


The post-9/11 world has seen a drastic rise of superhero franchises. Perhaps we were looking for a savior of sorts. We found it on the big screen in a team of heroes restoring hope by defending New York from an alien terrorist attack. But as every movie release raised the stakes, their flaws began to surface. Instead of trusting each other, they built walls. In Civil War, Cap and Iron Man faced off on emotional and ideological levels, marking a turn away from the archetypal tale of superhero-defeats-antagonist. Rather than an attack instigated by a sorcerer cloaked in green and adorned with horns, Marvel showed us the psychological devastation of hero-on-hero war instigated by a man with no superpowers.


This year’s Infinity War is less about defending Earth from Thanos, but rather about whether these broken superheroes can unite to defeat their biggest enemy, or not. Movies now contain less scenes of heroes saving humans than scenes of heroes working through their disagreements. Defenseless mortals are being written out of the narrative, and yet, audiences still connect to these movies and relate to the superheroes more than ever.

Perhaps it’s a sign that we were never the helpless citizens all along. Perhaps we were always the superheroes. We each, in our own way, have the power to save. Like Captain America, who stands up against the forces of a changing world to save his best friend. Iron Man, who takes a youngin under his wing and becomes a surrogate father. Thor, who knows his brother is a backstabbing traitor, but chooses to love him anyway.

Maybe those are their real superpowers.


I don’t think we’re looking for a savior anymore, nor are we supposed to. We have our own untapped powers. We know why we fight. We must stop using the rhetoric of team versus team and set aside differences. Unite out of love and necessity. Get back on our feet again and again. Declare like Cap, “I can do this all day.”

This is how we fight.





College: The Art of Saying Goodbye


In August, when I said goodbye to my family in the airport ready to head off to college, I didn’t shed a tear in front of them. It was a sad parting, but I was also excited for everything college promised: new adventures, new friends, essentially a new life. Yale in many ways has met that expectation, and I couldn’t ask for more.

I flew back to sunny California for Thanksgiving break. I spent a beautiful week playing mahjong with my family and methodically checking off my bucket list of favorite food places. It was wonderful, yes, so wonderful that when it came time to say goodbye, I broke down in tears at LAX, clinging onto Mom and Dad.

I don’t have anything against Yale. In fact, I’ve fallen head over heels for Yale, and I think it’s more than a first-year puppy love. But I cried anyway, dreading not the return to Yale, but rather the separation from my family—even if I was going to see them in less than four weeks for Christmas break.

My mom texted me the following picture. It only made me cry harder on the journey back to Yale, knowing she was taking it just as hard as I was.


The fact was, I was leaving my family behind. Thanksgiving break was a return to tenants of my previous lifestyle: heart-to-hearts with my mom, jokes with my dad, and games with my brother. After break, I was convinced no one could show me that same degree of kindness at Yale. After all, how deep could connections go for first-years in a brand new environment? Jaded thoughts began taking over. On the shuttle back to Yale’s campus, I prayed the ride would last forever.

Arriving at Old Campus, I planned to make two trips to lug my heavy suitcases up five flights of stairs (no elevators in my building!). Instead, I was greeted by a kind stranger who spontaneously helped carry them all the way up to my suite—and suddenly I was reminded that I was not alone. That people here—my roommate, suitemates, classmates, frocos, professors, ministry fellows, and yes, strangers—have consistently wrapped me in their love and care. This random act of kindness was a timely reminder of this loving community. It was the simplest, yet loveliest welcome back from Yale.

The cycle will repeat itself—no matter how much I want to delay it, I’ll have to say goodbye again to my family and dog at the end of Winter Break. I might break down in tears again. I might throw a tantrum in the middle of LAX. I might never master the art of saying goodbye, but maybe that’s okay. Because every goodbye is accompanied by a welcome back. And while not everyone may bump into a Good Samaritan with the strength to lug a 50-pound suitcase up five flights of stairs, I hope you’ll find your own little welcome back in the new year.

First Semester Reflections


I had a meltdown before my second final in college.

The night before, I kindly told my next-door neighbors to turn down their music and my suitemate to lower her voice in the common room. Yet I still couldn’t get good enough sleep thanks to my nerves: drenched with sweat and tossing throughout the night, thinking about impending finals.

I had made it through my first final relatively unscathed, but in the two hours before my second final on the same day, I panicked. There was so much info I still needed to process. On the walk over to the auditorium, I called my mom. I started breathing hard and couldn’t see straight. I was hyper-aware of the fact that I wasn’t as smart or as eloquent as my classmates, who could identify a quote within seconds and then give ten minutes worth of context. I told her about students who prepared 100-page study guides whereas mine were barely ten (and handwritten, too).

Mom was in the middle of cell group—so she quickly prayed for me and hung up. I was on my own, with three pens and a semester’s worth of highly diluted knowledge lurking somewhere in my brain. The clock struck 2pm, and three hours and two blue books later I exited feeling like I had walked into a wall. This deadening feeling repeated itself three more times, intensifying with every final: It felt like I had been hit by a Smart car, then a Ford pick-up truck, and finally, a bullet train.

It’s easy to remember college as that: mind-numbing studying and midterms and studying and finals and the anxiety when grades come out. But a week before finals, in the span of three days, I baked cookies, met Vision at a wildly fun concert, had dimsum and ramen, enjoyed an impromptu suitemate nail salon, watched a comedy show, partook in the First Year Snowball Fight, had a hot chocolate late-night mini-dance party, bonded at a club turnover dinner, and watched Lady Bird.

And that was just one weekend.

College is all of that and more. It’s shifting and shaping your heart to find a home within new walls. It’s learning routes through courtyards until your feet have gained muscle memory, and it’s the thrill of finding shortcuts. It’s recognizing how easy it is to stop caring for your mental, spiritual, and physical health, and realizing how hard it is to care for yourself, let alone your newfound friends. It’s embracing the frantic juggling and still finding time to breathe, recuperate. It’s Lady Bird realizing, as Variety puts it, not just that her hometown is her most beloved place, “but that the life she’s been desperately longing for is the one that she’s been living.” It’s apprehension and excitement and heartache and hope all at once in a soul that is like the ocean: mercurial, unsure, beautiful.

I wish coming out of high school I had been told a little more explicitly about the ups and downs of college. That despite the reduced class time you’ll spend even more time studying, that despite appearances your classmates don’t have everything together, that despite the hustle you’ll still have an uncomfortable amount of time to reflect on who you are and decide on who you want to be. That it takes a little more time than one movie to become lifelong friends with each other. That there is a difference between being alone and being lonely. That sleep is a top priority. That even though it is tempting to dwell in the past or future, you must treasure the present, because it is so fleeting.

The present is always the most painful. The past is looking back on sepia-filtered vignettes, like the beautifully edited and colored montages in Lady Bird. The comfort and the melancholy of it all lies in the fact that one day, the present—college—will be the past. Before we know it, college will simply be clips strung together of happy and sad, but mostly happy, moments:

Lights, camera, action on the late-night muffled laughter in the hallway, the adventures to find free food across campus, the catching snowflakes on our tongues. Zoom in on a girl who is grappling with the fact that the present passes by too slow and too fast at the same time. She’s a little bit nervous about second semester, but that’s okay. The uncertainty is what makes it worth living: a spontaneous life where her every step is as light as birds taking flight.

PS. Watching Lady Bird right now as I had literally lived her life as a senior applying for college, navigating friendships old and new, and leaving family in California to go to the East Coast–suffice to say it hit very, very close to home. Especially the leaving part.

PPS. Lady Bird totally would have gotten into Yale. She seems like more of a New Haven girl than a New York City girl.

2017 Blessings


All of the following would not have been possible without God. Here are some of the most MARVELous moments from 2017.

  1. Emma Watson gave me advice for college.
  2. Captain America patted my back.
  3. I transformed as an artist at YoungArts.
  4. A little essay I wrote grew wings and took off to the other side of the world.
  5. I danced with Baby Groot.
  6. I made my choice: the best choice!
  7. Red roses at the Garden Affair: I went to prom and it was a night to remember.
  8. I said goodbye in style to the Creative Writing Conservatory with the most badass girls.
  9. I embraced my inner Wonder Woman.
  10. I celebrated my 18th birthday, surrounded by the most amazing people.
  11. I graduated! Headed second star to the right and straight on till morning.
  12. I saw three different productions of my plays (one in the making)!
  13. Over the summer, I practically became a Disney Princess by osmosis (in their presence!) and by kissing a dolphin.
  14. I became a US Citizen and officially changed my name.
  15. Immigrants—we get the job done! I saw Hamilton!
  16. I had my first appearance in Teen Vogue featuring my dorm.
  17. I started college, and found Hermione/Belle’s advice to be so true: “[Kindred spirits] do exist… Pursue the things that you love and that you’re really passionate about. They’ll be there. Don’t give up. They are there.”

And a Bonus: 18. Malaysia has my heart!

Thank you for going on this adventure with me!

Re: Hamilton

There’s a million things I haven’t done… Just you wait!

My new year’s resolution: get those things done. Write like I’m running out of time, like tomorrow won’t arrive, like I need it to survive, every second I’m alive.

2018, hear me now: I’m past patiently waiting, I’m passionately smashing every expectation every action is an act of creation! I’m going to rise up. I am not throwin’ away my shot!

#MeToo: On the Streets and in the Workplace


Me too.

I’ve always wondered what it’s like to be able to walk down a street without looking at glass store fronts or at shadows to see if someone is following me.

I don’t like rainy days, but when I’m walking back to my dorm late at night I am thankful for my umbrella, ready to flip my grip to turn it into a self defense weapon at any time.

I hate that moment of indecision when I get catcalled. Ignore him? Snap back at him? All I can do, in that moment, is evaluate what I’m wearing. A long-sleeved dress. Or jeans and a tee. Or a blazer for a formal event. I bow my head and keep walking, hoping the man in the car will eventually speed up instead of trailing behind me.

It’s not just the isolated incidents when I’m out and about in public. Sexual misconduct pervades places of learning and work. Fortunately, I’ve never experienced that at school. However, the latter is another story.


This was what I was wearing at an event for National Geographic’s premiere of “Mars.” It was a classy cocktail event at The Beverly Hilton pool deck, where I was on a mission to interview the cast of “Mars” as well as real-life astronauts and NASA engineers. At certain parts of the party I was mingling with other journalists as well.

I was introduced to a man and two women, all professionals who were interested in my journalism career. I told them I’ve been in the industry since I was 11 years old, worked under a variety of online outlets, was currently covering for the Los Angeles Times High School Insider.

“Wow,” the man chuckled. “Who’d you have to sleep with?”

I can’t remember what I said in response. I must have laughed it off. It was only after I came home and recounted to my mom the conversation that I realized I had been humiliated. I cried. All my skills, hard work, time and energy I poured into my work that got me to my position was dismissed in the implication that I had used my body to advance my career. He knew full well he was talking to a 17-year-old high schooler. The other women who were part of the conversation said nothing.

I’m glad the #MeToo movement is picking up steam again. But it should not be a comforting movement, for women to stand in solidarity with each other. While that is a good effect, the purpose of the movement is to make people uncomfortable. It’s to show how pervasive sexual misconduct is, from the streets to the workplace, from asphalt to red carpets. My experience should be an exception, not a norm. #MeToo is a wake up call.

What to do? Use your voice. Real cool advice I read: practice saying “that’s not cool” or “you crossed the line” or “you need to rethink what you just said” or “back off.” Use your voice and perspective to call out backhanded sexist comments that perpetuate sexual assault. Whoever you are–your voice matters. Use it.

On The Virtues of Patience

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I’ve been at Yale for nearly 7 weeks.

There’s a friend I’ve met. It took us a while to get along, but now that we do, we’re inseparable. Sometimes, I lose her when my ridiculously high expectations aren’t met. I cling onto her when I see other friend groups naturally form. She brings me peace of mind when I’m worked up about the what if’s: what if I don’t make any friends? What if I can’t seem to find a place to call home? What if the rest of college is like this?

Patience is a wonderful friend to have.

Patience means not worrying. It’s trusting that college relationships will eventually be just as strong as high school ones. It’s knowing it’s only a matter of time before you find your second family for the next four years. It’s waiting with open hands and trusting God to open all the right doors. It’s looking forward to the right season when the apples are in bloom.

Loneliness hits you at the strangest times. It sneaks up on you, in the middle of the street, in the middle of the night, in the middle of a crowd. It’s yearning for what you once had (and probably took for granted): the friendships and family we had in high school. And that’s okay. It hurts, but the perspective is invaluable (listen to Passenger’s “Let Her Go,” and you’ll see what I mean).

Sometimes, when we’re in a new environment surrounded by drastically different people than we’re accustomed to, it makes us question who we are. After all, we are the average of the five people we spend the most time with. But I believe that a few weeks of college cannot wipe away who you’ve built yourself to be for the past 18 years. It’s indeed tempting to compromise who you are for companionship, but when you are tempted, reach out to your old friends. They will remind you of your best self. There is nothing wrong with spending hours talking to friends and family–they are the ones who know you inside out.

It’s been almost 7 weeks since I’ve arrived at Yale. I am slowly but surely finding families in different communities. Patience will still be by my side as the relationships grow, change, and strengthen. From my suitemates to fellow believers to people who share the same culture as me–thank you for welcoming me in.

Good Enough


Thoughts on being “Good Enough”:

The fact is, I’m not.

Or at least, for multiple organizations on campus.

When I tried out for theater productions and got denied, I was okay with it because I’ve never done theater before. When I tried out for dance groups and got denied, I was okay with it because there were literal Broadway dancers auditioning next to me. When I tried out for slam poetry groups and got denied, I was okay with it because poetry is extremely subjective.

But when everything piles up, all these okay’s start to feel heavier and heavier.

See, Yale’s a pretty talented place. In fact, everywhere you turn, there’s a person doing something extraordinary playing it off as ordinary. I’m not unused to this–I saw this every day at OCSA. It’s inspiring, but it can also have the flip effect of making you feel Not Good Enough when every call you make home for the first three weeks are about rejections (thanks Mom and Dad for bearing with me!).

It’s not that I’m not used to rejections, however. I’ve faced a ridiculous amount of closed doors in journalism, from security guards to publicists to the stars themselves. It’s just that in journalism, I had came to expect rejection and therefore was able to be at peace with it.

Going into college, I thought I knew exactly what I wanted to do and thought I would have no problem doing it: something in theater, something in creative writing, something in dance, something in heritage/culture, something in tour guiding, and something in Christianity. So far, I’ve hit 1 out of 6 in the one type of organizations with no barred doors–you guessed it, a Christian group. I wasn’t expecting college to be filled with so much rejection within the first three weeks; that’s why I started doubting myself. I thought there was something seriously wrong with me, and the way I had been performing.

I started turning to God and asking him for peace and joy. I’ve held onto verses like Jeremiah 29:11: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Last week, my prayer request was that God would open all the right doors and close all the wrong ones. It took me awhile, but now I can’t see it any other way: it seems like my prayers have been answered, and I know it is only a matter of time before I find the right doors.

Speaking of which–I’ve found one: Christian Union has been a light in my life. It’s been a joy to get to know these fellow Christ-lovers, and to be able to join the worship team and socials team has been an incredible blessing. This is the first time in a long time I’ve been able to use my piano skills (3 years rusty!) for God, and I can’t wait to use my planning skills for His Glory as well.

College is definitely not what I expected, nor should it be. Just like there’s a joy in spontaneously trekking miles for one dollar smoothies or having unplanned late night talks with friends both new and old, there’s a joy in not knowing what I’ll be doing on a regular basis two weeks from now. The passion I have for the things I listed above isn’t going to die out just because I can’t do it in a certain space. I know my passion for storytelling can’t be contained and will somehow find its home on campus and in the world.

After all, Good Enough is subjective. But in God’s eyes, I am More than Good Enough, and that’s enough for me.


“I think people who are creative are the luckiest people on earth. I know that there are no shortcuts, but you must keep your faith in something Greater than You, and keep doing what you love. Do what you love, and you will find the way to get it out to the world.” — Judy Collins


A Reflection on My Play, “Ocean Debris,” as well as Asian Actors in the Industry

The house lights dim. For the next twenty minutes the whole room is taken on a rollercoaster of emotions. My attention is divided–I am both focused on what is happening on stage as well as the reactions from a cluster of ladies two rows in front of me. I can hear their “ooh”’s and their gasps and their sighs, every time a character says something minutely profound. These are audible and visible reactions you can’t find in a movie theater–live theater is an invitation to be present and emote in that moment.


Mallory Low as Emiko. Courtesy of The Blank Theatre

It’s an indescribable feeling when a woman comes up to me after the show and tells me how much she loved my play. That a little script I wrote about a dive shop in Japan could somehow be relatable to an American audience. My play grappled with ideas of grief, loss, and healing, inspired by the true events of Japanese families still searching for their lost ones even seven years after the 2010 tsunami. To see it come to life for a second time on the Stella Adler stage in Hollywood was all the more emotional. This production incorporated elements I never thought of: projections, spotlights, footage of the tsunami overwhelming houses and leaving a trail of destruction in its wake. Showing the audience that this play was rooted in truth increased the level of intensity and poignancy.

When I first got the call that “Ocean Debris” had been selected for The Blank’s 25th Annual Young Playwrights Festival, I was excited to be able to tell this story of human perseverance and tenacity. I was also overjoyed to bring together a cast and director who are all Asian American. When Hollywood simply will not learn from low box office hauls and listen to common sense re: whitewashing (see: “Ghost in the Shell,” “Aloha,” “Great Wall,” “Iron Fist”), it’s crucial that storytellers take matters into their own hands. The creators are the ones who have the power of opening doors for Asian actors, and it’s an honor to play even a small role in that movement. Broadway is more diverse than ever but still can do much, much better, considering there are only a handful of roles for Asian leads in theater.


Mallory Low as Emiko, playwright Cassandra Hsiao, Mark Daugherty as Tomi, and director Angela Oh. Courtesy of Cassandra Hsiao

The issue is not talent, it’s opportunity. Ever since the Bruce Lee biopic outrage and the “Mulan” protests to cast a Chinese actress as the famed heroine who saved China, I have been more aware of the ethnicities of the characters I write. Change starts in the room of creators. When given the chance I believe America has a plethora of Asian stars in the making, and I hope I can be part of the movement that includes “Wong Fu,” “Crazy Rich Asians,” “Fresh Off The Boat,” majority Asian Broadway casts, and much more.

To my cast and crew: thank you for being a part of “Ocean Debris.” I am eternally grateful for all the heart and soul you poured into this play. To The Blank Theatre: thank you for taking yet another chance with me in YPF.


“Ocean Debris”

Written by Cassandra Hsiao

Mentored by Jennie Webb

Directed by Angela Oh


Mark Daugherty as Tomi

Mallory Low as Emiko

For more information, visit http://ypf.theblank.com

“Ocean Debris” premiered the fourth week of the festival from June 22-25.

An Open Letter to My Dad

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I wish I could say I remember our moment that has now become family lore. The moment when baby Cassandra wouldn’t shut her wailing and crying no matter how many times you rocked me back and forth. The moment when another piercing scream would break your eardrums. The moment you couldn’t take it anymore and tossed me (a defenseless baby!) onto the bed.

To both our surprise, it worked. Baby Cassandra gaped at the gall of the man who dared to do that.

I suppose this isn’t the best way to begin what is supposed to be an open love letter to the first man I loved, but looking back that moment is quite definitive as to who you are. You find a million different ways to show your love, and just when I think you’ve run out of ideas you pull a million and one. You never give up on family or give up in your work, and though your ways are unconventional they somehow always work.


You chanted rhymes of moons and rabbits until I fell asleep. Stood in long lines at Disneyland to see your daughter meet characters she had no interest in meeting (back then). Threw me into the pool before I knew how I learned to swim.

Perhaps you are why I tell stories even in my sleep. Why I so dearly love meeting Disney characters now. Why I don’t look before I leap. You’ve shown me that the distance to reach my dreams is only a heartbeat away. You’ve taught me to say yes to things I have no experience in and trust that I’ll figure it out along the way. After all, you had to navigate a whole new world with me when I was 11, one filled with A-listers and world-famous influencers.



Attending premieres at red carpets can be very time-consuming. I couldn’t have done this without the support of my dad who drives me to the event, waits patiently for the press line to open, and captures all my moments with the stars on camera.


Dad risks injury to ensure we get the best shot of the stars.

I first started calling myself “kid reporter” when I was 11. Without missing a beat, you went to Fry’s and picked up a video camera, a Nikon and a microphone. You learned when to zoom in on me and zoom in on the stars. You set up the tripod like a pro, and sacrificed hundreds of hours playing the waiting game like a true journalist. Together we’ve pilfered hotel tea bags, food, and press gifts at junkets. We’ve sweet-talked our way around grumpy security guards and memorized studio lots like the back of our hands. We’ve braved stormy weather in the name of a red carpet closing shot. 

Sometimes, my happiest moments are with you on the long car rides to these sometimes frivolous, sometimes deeply meaningful, and often heart-pounding fun events. I practice my questions with you, bounce them off you like handball.

“In the movie, your characters support and teach each other different things. What’s something you’ve learned from working with each other?” I’d ask, as if you were Chris Evans or Octavia Spencer or Mark Ruffalo.

You’d toss your head like a diva. “I don’t learn anything, I’m already the best,” you’d say. “Next question!”


You’ve taken chances. Sometimes that means asking for a selfie with a celeb, which often works out in your favor. But sometimes taking chances doesn’t turn out too well.

Once you gambled your diminishing number of gallons in the engine against a forty minute drive to Segerstrom Hall for my most important performance of the year (in front of an audience of 3,000). You lost that bet, leaving me in a prom dress standing on a sidewalk midday, three blocks away from the theater. Luckily, a fairy godmother must have been watching and clucking her tongue, as a taxicab appeared out of nowhere. Now, you always make sure to get gas before a trip down the highway.

Only a couple weeks ago, you explained to me how street signs worked. That the sign facing our car was the street that ran from left to right, not the street that we were on. How I managed to get my license without knowing how to read signs has escaped me; but through it all you’ve patiently taught me how to navigate the roads of Walnut, the game of Mahjong, and life.

I may not know a single thing about freeway geography but I do know that you’ll guide me through it all. You may not know a single thing about fashion but I do know I’ll always be looking for that nod of approval on a new dress.


Like you’ve done with Baby Cassandra, thank you for holding me so close even during the times I’ve become unbearable. Every passing hour draws us closer to the heartbreaking moment you’ll have to let go and toss me into this new life, but at least this time, it won’t take either of us by surprise. Instead, I’ll be smiling at the gall of the man who raised me to be everything I am today.

💕 💗 , your favorite daughter,